Trying

Today, late at night, I happen to stumble upon a website that figuratively shoves facts of why not to be a doctor into your face and their opinions are backed up by the statistics provided by MMC (Malaysia's Medical Council)

I've known that there is an overpopulation of doctors but I did not know that this issue was serious to an extent that my future, if I am able to successfully graduate, will hold so many uncertainties such as uncertain job security.

The main reason I left everything behind to pursue this is because I wanted to help people. I wanted to change the world, make it a better place, even if it was for just a person. I am in no way insinuating that other professions can't help people, I am just pointing out that for me, studying medicine seems to be the best way, at least that's how I see it.

I wish I could be selfless and say that money doesn't matter or that as long as I had my passion I will be fine. A lot of doubts are swimming in my mind and I am really frustrated. What if my passion isn't enough? What if I'm not enough? Just because a person got into med school does not mean that person is suited to become a doctor.

I am really trying to stay positive, to stay strong and be courageous. I really am...