Awkward turtle

It's only been the first few hours but I'm already quite nervous. I would say I am bit socially awkward especially at first because I can't gather up the courage to start up a conversation with strangers nor do I have the magnetic pull to draw a person in like my brother seems to have.

Arrghhh! I feel so useless because now I'm stuck in my room eating puffs as dinner because I'm scared that I'll have to eat dinner alone down in the cafeteria which would be really awkward. I think I have an avid phobia of awkward situations as this actually causes adverse effects on my daily life. I'm freaking missing dinner for this, DINNER!

My parents is going to call later and I'll probably have to lie and tell them that I've eaten dinner with some of my new friends. I know you're probably going to wag your finger and think exasperatedly 'Why don't you just down and eat, maybe you'll actually meet some new friends?' Don't you think I know that? The potential awkward situations that may arise from that prevents me from doing so, stupid phobia, stupid me.

I was lucky in Canning college that the group I was thrust into was introduced by my brother and they accepted me with open arms. Here, I'm sitting inside my room, freaking out just a little bit while 3 other people are outside fixing some stuff, drilling holes in my housemate's room.

Why am I such a wuss? :/ My tummy is angry at me too...