What do I want?

What do want from them? More sympathy would be nice.

What could I have said? I am sorry but I haven't been doing revision everyday so I'm stuck with a mountain of lectures to digest and hope I don't regurgitate all out so I don't fail my test on Monday? So this is how your son is doing, how are you doing?

'Work harder, do your best,'said my parents. What more could they give me besides that? What do I really want from them. 'I know university is hard but this is life.' Truest word ever spoken?

'Why don't you go study in the library because there is reference there?'

'I'm sorry but I'm in knee deep just from the lectures note, I don't think I have the time to read extra information or even know what to look up on. I'm sorry that you thought I was hardworking but I'm really not. Neither am I genius so what am I?

I feel like a spoilt child because I know they do care but it is just not enough for me.

If I said to them after they complained about a hard day of work,'You got to do what you got to do to but bread on the dining table right? Buck up, I know it's hard but hey, everyone else is working as well, it is not just you who is suffering', I wonder how she would feel. Encouraged or enraged?

There is a fine line there isn't it.

What do I want then? What do I need? I have no idea. That is why I think I am behaving like a child throwing a tantrum because of a subpar Christmas present. Incapable of being thankful and optimistic.