ashamed

You don't need to lie to me, it doesn't work anymore. I've seen through the lies you spun and there is no point denying anymore. To me the truth, even if it hurts me. I rather be hurt than feeling that I can't trust the ones that I love.

It is understandable if you feel ashamed of me. I would be too if I were you. Wait, no, scratch that. I wouldn't because I know how it feels to be under the gaze of a loved one that oozes out disappointment. But you have every right to be because I am ashamed of myself too.

You don't need to elaborate your lies, you should have known by now that I see through all your lies, big or small. Why? I guess that's because you raised me and we are more alike than you think.

I won't tell others about my decision, only my best friends. I wished you tell the truth if someone asked you but I understand if you rather keep quiet. You've been through tough times and I was the culprit. I can't expect someone to be perfect and accept my imperfection because that would be contradictory wouldn't it?

I've braced for this since I made my decision. It hurts but it's okay. You told me not to live under the stares of others and you are one of the others. I'm tired of pleasing everyone and being scared of everything. I'll be brave for once and strive for what I want. It's high time that I started to run for myself than for anyone else. I'm just hoping the direction that I am running to is the Lord's direction.