Hardworking

Today I felt like a lump. To quote my secondary school chemistry teacher a lazy lump.

I was inside the house, watching a drama from my dad's Ipad while he slaved away outside, cleaning the compound and washing anything that was deemed unclean in his eyes.

My dad hired someone to cut the grass just in time for the Chinese New Year Celebration. That guy brought his child to work which made me feel more like a lazy lump. That kid couldn't have be more than 10 years of age and he's out there helping his father to do work while I sit inside, hogging the snacks and eating like their is no tomorrow.

But after a while, I ate away the guilt and focused on watching my drama instead of feeling like a lazy lump.

Sometimes I wish I was hardworking like my parents. They can spend the whole afternoon, tending to their garden, snipping away branches and washing the sidewalks. I rather stay inside and just rest. I'm such a lazy person.

I think I lack the drive to succeed in life. I just want to flow with the motion and put in the exact amount of effort needed, not an ounce more.

-.- I should really make a new years resolution about being more hardworking and actually stick with it.