Easier times

I wish I could have a timeout right now, just to feel like I can breathe again instead of being trapped in a life that I don't even know what direction I am going.

I should be living the 'dream' but instead I go to uni every day, either emotionless or weary. Lectures come and go, labs are always frustrating since I can't understand half the time. At the end of the day, I just want to go back to my room, eat and have some time to myself just to slowly inhale and exhale.

Should university life be like this? Should life in general be like this? I imagined what life would be like in university and now I rather go back to easier times.

I think in my life, the most fun adventure I had was during my Canning College year. I went on a journey of self-discovery and explored foreign places with new friends. The curriculum wasn't that bad and I did enjoy most of the classes, well at least half of them. I was filled with so much hope then. I could be in any profession I wanted to because no decision has been made yet.

If God gave me a chance to go back, I would take it in a heartbeat. I don't know if this is the right path for me but I know I'm not lucky enough to go for a third chance. I'll just have to stick through and hopefully, it'll get better, so much more better than it is right now.