"Benefits"

It is very evident that studying medicine has taken a toll on me, both physically and mentally.

I don't wake up every day filled with joy nor do I thirst for the knowledge that my lecturers are throwing out constantly. Yet again, I have been numbed by the academics and lost sight of my goals.

I remember there was one lecturer who pointed out how we should act professionally as we are giving benefits that other profession may not possess. I almost scoffed at that statement. What kind of benefits? To be under constant scrutiny, facing difficult patients, low job security, high academic demands, facing possible litigation everyday?

As you can see, my cynical side got the better of me and I was very disheartened.

The only benefit I could think of was the benefit of helping people medically, is that worth everything that I am sacrificing for?

I'm still here aren't I?